My name is Panida Mookdasnit, I am 41 years old. I was born in Las Angeles, CA. I lived in Thailand for 9 years. My Dad took me and brother away from our Mom and dropped us off in Thailand to live with our Grandmother. It was not his plan to leave us there for that long, but when you are in addiction you lose sight of a lot of what is important. I know this to be true, because I also have lived that life. I grew up with no Mom or Dad, no family to show me Gods love. I was abandon, physically and mentally abused and molested as child. From the age of 2 to the age of 7, my Grandmother physically abused and try to kill me. Although my Mother and Father have forsaken me, my Lord took me into His arms and carried me through those years.
Because I was never shown love, I grew up feeling unloved, unwanted, without self-worth. I was suicidal from the age of 14-37 years old. For years I allowed the enemy to tell me lie after lie as he tried to steal, kill and destroy my life. I was an enemy of God and even allowed my-self to be used by the devil. I really believed at one point of my life I was possessed by demons.
I came to Grace House on February 4th, 2015 from prison where I was incarcerated for eleven months. This was the first time I had ever been to prison and by the grace of God, also my last. Before I came to Grace House, I had no clue that it was possible to live a life with Christ, a life full of contentment, joy, peace and most of all a life full of so much love. Grace House through the Bible and Holy Spirit has shown me that Jesus is the truth, the way and the only life I want to live.
I have been delivered from alcoholism, drugs, pills, hate, depression and anxiety. I no longer have to live or conform to the pattern of this world, but I have learned to be transformed by the renewing of my mind and test and approve what God’s will is His good and perfect will for my life. He has delivered me from the dominion of darkness and transferred me to the kingdom of His beloved son, Jesus Christ, my only hope of glory. I used to be bound by the things of the world and the kingdom of darkness. Today I choose to be with Jesus in the kingdom of light, because He is the light of the world. Instead of my shame, guilt, hurts pain from my past, He has given me a double portion of His Spirit. My body now belong to God, it is the Holy temple for the Lord and it no longer belongs to the enemy; I am covered by the blood of Jesus. He has been my place of refuge, even when I was a little girl, He was there. God has been my hiding place, my tree of life, my covering and the rock of my salvation.
I graduated from Grace House in December 2015 and after interning for couple of months, I became an assistance House Supervisor and now one of the House Supervisor where God continues the good work He has begun in me. The Lord continues to bless and teach me in a mighty way. He loves to show up and show out in my life all the time. He is the God that hears and see me, He is the God that speaks to me, the only one True God! The Spirit of the Lord God is upon me because He has anointed me to bring good news to the poor. He has sent me to bind up the broken hearted, to proclaim liberty to the captives and opening of the prison to those who are bound.
Since I’ve have received Jesus Christ as my Savior and Lord in 2014, I have learned who I am in Christ and no enemy in this world could ever separate me from the love of my Savior. I have learned that the will of God will not take me where the grace of God will not protect me. Thank you Jesus!!!